I don’t know about you but I find my emotions and my mood really, really frustrating at times. I feel as though one minute, I’m on a high and feeling pretty good about life and where I’m at and then the next minute, I’m feeling down and just want to cry. I don’t know if this is me just being emotional, whether its pregnancy hormones, whether its my brain chemistry, but whatever it is, I hate it. I wish I could be even-keeled and consistent. I’d settle for feeling okay and levelled rather than so up and down all the time.
I’ve found this happening more recently and I’ve been trying to find ways to combat the fluctuating moods. I think sometimes it helps me just to embrace the lows and realize that for me, they will pass in time. I never know how long. Sometimes a few minutes, sometimes a few hours, and sometimes the whole day, I’ll be feeling down but at some point it switches and I’m thankful for that. This realization of thinking, “This too shall pass,” has been helpful for me.
I know I have talked about it frequently but trying to think of five things I’m thankful for also helps. I often do it reluctantly and I may not want to be thankful at the time, but I find if I’m feeling down and I do this exercise, it focuses my mind on the good in my life, and it can lift my mood and change my outlook.
I know I’m really lacking in sleep and I’m sure that doesn’t help my moods, so probably if I could just sleep more, I’d feel more balanced…easy to say, hard to do at this stage!
Anyway I didn’t really know what to write today, so I thought I’d just share this current struggle of mine and hope that I’m not alone in it! Sometimes life is just hard and full of ups and downs and these are some of the ways I’m trying to cope these days. I have been sick for a week now and I’ve never had someone relying on me in the same way when I am sick as now. I have always wondered how moms took care of their babies when they were sick and it was one of my biggest fears wondering how I would face it. Anyway here we are now and I’m facing it. I wish I could say I’m handling it well but I’m just discouraged and I feel like it will never end! I know that’s not true, and “This too shall pass,” but, man, its hard in the midst of it! It’s easy to want to give up, but I know that’s not really an option right now. I’m still a mom even when I’m sick and I’m thankful for that too.
I hope everyone reading this is staying healthy and happy on this sunny Monday. If it’s a down day, it will pass. And if it’s a good day, YAY! Keep it up! And to all those mamas out there who are sick or dealing with sick kids, I feel ya. You are a champ!
