This summer has been one of the most challenging and heart-wrenching times of my life. There have been so many things that have happened all in a short amount of time and all big enough to deal with on their own, let alone all of it happening together. Despite all of this, I can say that I have found peace throughout it all. It has not been painless, quite the opposite, and most of it has not made sense to me, but God and I have had lots of time to talk it over, and despite me not understanding what is happening, I trust Him in it all.
There have been moments I’ve felt like everything is in chaos. My health, my family, my work life, my home…and yet in those moments, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. Peace that I can’t explain. Peace that just flowed from a Divine source, assuring me He was still there. Life is still good, He is still good.
Sometimes I would start to feel proud, thinking hey I’m still going, I must be pretty strong, and then I would realize, the only way I’m making it through all of this is because there is one who is stronger and wiser and greater than me, sustaining me in His strength. I really could not do this on my own. Most days I didn’t know how I would get through the day, how I could handle anymore. I just wanted to let go of life here on earth and be with Christ, whole and healthy and free from all this suffering and pain. Honestly, sometimes life just sucks…and you know what? In a way, that’s ok with me. It makes me long for something more. It makes me long for my future in Heaven, and it makes me look ahead to that day when all will be made new on earth and there will be no more suffering or pain or death or hurt.
That being said, getting through the sucky times here on earth is excruciating, but that is why I am so glad there is hope. I am so glad that there can be peace amidst the chaos. I am so thankful to know that in my darkest moments, God is good and He is there and He is giving me just what I need to make it through those moments. He will give you that too. Cry out to Him, He will save you.
Isaiah 35:4
“Say to those with fearful hearts, ’Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, He will come with vengeance; with divine retribution. He will come to save you’.”
This song came to mind as I was writing this- “He Will Come and Save You” by Bob Fitts
Say to those who are fearful hearted
Do not be afraid
The Lord your God will come
And with His mighty arm
When you call on His Name
He will come and save you
Chorus:
He will come and save you
He will come and save you
Say to the weary one
Your God will surely come
He will come and save you
He will come and save you
Lift up your eyes to Him
You will arise again
He will come and save you
Say those who are broken hearted
Do not lose your faith
The Lord your God will come
And with His loving hand
When you call on His Name
He will come and save you
Bridge:
He is our refuge in the day of trouble
He is our shelter in the time of storm
He is our tower in the day of sorrow
Our fortress in the time of war
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