I thought I would write a little bit about being pregnant in a pandemic as I have been and quite a few of my friends have been as well. This isn't something that I would have planned or wished for myself or others, but this is our reality and as I've thought about it, I'm not sure I would change it.
As someone who already struggles with anxiety, I would think that this pregnancy during a pandemic would be a lot more stressful for me, but thankfully I have been managing okay. I definitely have moments where I am worried and stressed about the future, but overall, my anxiety has been manageable. I also have much better mental health when I am pregnant which is humorous because physically, pregnancy is pretty rough for me. I'm thankful I have one of the two!
In some ways, I've found being pregnant during this pandemic to be a bit of a blessing because there isn't as much going on and it's easy to be at home when I really haven't felt well most of the time. There are fewer appointments and get togethers and I'm working from home, so it has been nice to have a lot off of my plate. Most of my appointments have been easier too. Everything is so much quicker and some appointments are even over the phone so it has been helpful for me to stay at home for many of them.
I believe God is in control of all that is going on and He knew when I would be pregnant. This little life inside of me was meant to come at this time, so I'm going to trust Him with the future. I don't know what my delivery will be like or the postpartum time after. I worry about being at home isolated with a newborn and a toddler and trying to heal from a c-section, and I wonder how I will get through all of that if we can't have people around.
I've had to go to the ER twice already in this pregnancy and because of COVID, I was alone and had to be by myself. The first time I went, I was pretty scared we were going to lose our baby and I had to go through that by myself. But I wasn't alone. I knew God was present and He sent me wonderful nurses and doctors who cared for me. He was kind and got me through that, but it certainly wasn't something I would wish on anyone or myself had I known about it beforehand. There were certainly lots of tears cried before and during.
I'm thankful I don't know the future and that God gives me the grace that I need for each day. So that is why I'm trying not to worry about the next month and a half and just trust that God has it figured out. He knows when and how Eva will arrive and who my doctors and nurses will be. I believe He will protect us and no matter what happens, it will be for our good and His glory.
This is my experience of being pregnant in a pandemic. It is not something I would have planned, but it has had its benefits as well. I'm learning that God's grace is sufficient for each day and that most of my life doesn't go as I planned. But I'm pretty confident that His way and timing is best, so I'm choosing to keep trusting that He's got all this figured out and will work it all out for good. And I am counting down each and every day until I'm not pregnant anymore!
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